Monday, April 23, 2012

You there, don't you worry

Hey, you there. Yes you, staring at a tiny crack in the wall wondering if it's going to spread. Wondering if you should try to fix it yourself, or have it fixed. You there, wondering how long it will take and how much it will cost to have all the little cracks, and aging appliances brought up to par and if it will make any difference the day the house goes on the market. Should it even go on the market? Don't you worry.

You there, wondering What's Next? Wondering if you'll be brave enough to live without an alarm clock and a schedule. Wondering what it will be like to not run yourself to exhaustion 5 days a week. Wondering if you know how to slow down. And stop looking at your 401k statement with a crinkle in your brow. It is what it is. Same with everything financial. Don't you worry.

I know what you're thinking. Hundreds of miles from family. Tied to city where your beloved is buried. Afraid of being intrusive. Afraid of leaving the home you've filled with life and love and memories. A city that knows you and your story and let's you be you.

Don't you worry. I've got it all figured out. (Yeah, yeah, I know I've said that before. But keep listening.) This life of our isn't about making a plan to stay self reliant. It's about loving one another. That's the bottom line. I imagine having a conversation with God and trying to explain to him that we didn't want to fall into a life where we ended up irritating each other, so we let each other live out our lives distant and polite. I'd rather fight with you here and there than have that conversation. That's for sure.

The house with the old furnace? It doesn't matter what you decide. If you sell it, we'll pack up the scars we made there, because we've earned them. And we'll sit and listen and write down our favorite memories on our hearts. But we'll leave the anxiety and the wintertime crickets for the new occupants. We'll move your things into a home that has room for overnight guests and new memories based on old traditions (and a low maintenance lawn).  Whatever you decide, know you don't have to make the choices alone. Know that wherever you live, you reside in our hearts and taking care of family is what we do.

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